just don't know how to describe the situation that i am going through right now...got lots of things to do and deadlines to beat...which to do first? my kids' affair in school? or my own school affair? Sunday fellowship or masteral exam? terrible, i just have no choice but to choose one...if i don't attend church services and fellowships, some people would judge me as not giving importance to God's time..not seeking God's will and not seeking HIS KINGDOM first... but what about my classes?whew! sometimes, i feel so guilty if i couldn't attend to my little angels' school activities..i am very thankful for my sister for being there to take care of them...she helps and teaches them in their projects, assignments and reviews...what am i then? shame, i don't even have the time to cook for my kids' breakfast...katee, who lives with us for almost 11 years (as old as apple my eldest child), does almost all the chores... jam and jen are there to assist her though during their free days.. i owe katee a lot...
i am worried about christmas break..last year, i wished for a real break but a day after christmas, i was confined at the hospital due to extreme stress and other illness kept me in the hospital for a week...that was the most unforgettable new year we had in the family as we celebrated it in the hospital...papa was there and everyone else in the house, except apoy (our 88 year-old lola who hates hospitals a lot) opted to stay in the house with our closest cousins rolly and wife...it was a painful experience not just because i couldn't even stand but because i coldn't even eat any of the food served! they were so tempting but i couldn't even gulp even a drop of water...i thought i would have died then...(funny, i was so overacting)
anyway, now, i have the apprehensions on the coming break...we have so many take home tasks to do both for my masteral class and school / office works...plus test papers and assignments to check,quizzes to record and the prelim grades to compute..it's just terrible...i planned to do some renovations in the house, repainting and maybe rearrange furniture but i guess it is just impossible to do now... don't know if i will ever have a merry Christmas...well, i know being merry is not dependent on the task we do but on the condition of our hearts but somehow when your mind tells you to rest and you can't just do it, it will really make you sick...what am i supposed to do?
anyway, one thing i am very certain about, whether busy or not, i will always be her to keep on this blogs going...this is one thing that unleashes stress out of me...thanks to you blogger.com...
i have to wind up now...i need to go to the nearest and cheapest hair salon for a hair spa...we will have our school party tonight...and exam tomorrow...(sighs)
happy vacation to all..
4 comments:
The way you sounded,you're overloaded...(Matthew 11:28-30 )(28.) If you are tired from carrying heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest.(29.) Take the yoke I give you.Put it on your shoulders and learn from ME.I am gentle and humble and you will find rest.(30.)This yoke is easy to bear and this burden is light.
The people are just probably so concerned about you,physically, emotionally and spiritually,they are not judging you,who knows GOD is using them to remind you that you are too BUSY, you need to take time to relax and know that HE is GOD.HE is more than what you are going through..and remember to live one day at a time,and your body is not a machine,you need rest,in fact sometimes machines need to rest..
Be positive about this CHRISTMAS.
It's not HIS will for you to get sick..your being so stressed out and being worried will make you sick.. but in JESUS name ,rebuke that thinking.
Have faith in HIM and trust HIM in every way.
Have a blessed CHRISTMAS!claim this CHRISTMAS to be a joyous one and the new year to be a prosperous year!
GOD bless!
from the state of good life
MERRY CHRISTMAS and a BLESSED NEW YEAR
Hey Dorcs, take it easy.
I am going through a similar situation but mine's "what to do?"-kind-of-predicament. You have so uch to do and so little time while i have so little to do with too much time. :) You think too much while i want to have much to think about, well, on an intellectual level like yours.
Perhaps it's time for you to "feel" and enjoy these feelings - be they bad or good. Perhaps...then let others do the thinking (and the "judging"). I believe our first responsibility is towards ourselves, that's why when we stretch ourselves beyond our limits, we crack.
I am cracking right now too...so take heart, you are not alone.
There is hope, because i know that one day when we'll meet again, we will laugh about the "cracks" and "freaks" that we once were.
For now, we just let things be, then we learn, and grow.
Good for you though you can still go to a spa. (sigh...)
miss you much.
by the way, i love your pink nail polish. did you have your nails done in the saloon? cute!
Hi, I understand what you feel but remember we don't live for ourselves, we live to honor God in everything-whether you believe tithing to be an Old Testament law or a New Testament truth, one thing is certain, giving God the first tenth of your income demonstrates that He's first in your life-but that's not all He wants YOU( as 3 T's go: tresure, time & talent) His blessing and His protection are yours all the way for that's God's WORD.
Yes, we have to CHOOSE according to what God's willl is. Cast your cares on Him for HE cares(1 Pet 5:7)Lasting change takes place in first gear, not overdrive. So expect occasional setbacks, and don't let them derail you. When you feel like throwing in the towel, get down on your knees and ask God to help you get back on track. He'll do it. We are suppose to TRUST HIM at all times- busy or not busy, Christmas or normal days for every "day" is purposedly designed by the Strength of your life- He loves you, Xena just rest solely in HIS LOVE!
by Shofar
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