Tuesday, January 12, 2010

for CS6 "my journey" by: D

I have always wanted to become a teacher but it took me a long time to become one. Over the years, I also pondered on my trails; on my journey in life. It wasn't just tough, it was really like journeying through the wilderness. I wasn't that brave I know. I was just so determined. In some part of my life, I would have considered the medicine or any medical courses had it not been for financial constraints. My inclination and interest for medicine was so deep not because I wanted to become famous in this field but it was all because of wanting to treat my dad from his paralysis which caused him physical disability and memory loss. The drive to achieve what I wanted in life was so intense but the force which tried to pull me down was equally strong - even stronger. Honestly, getting into college during those years was like climbing Mt. Everest. I guess everybody would agree with me especially when you only have a mother to take care of her 7 children and an ailing husband. She was a freelance laundry woman and sometimes a vendor of native delicacies which she acquired in consignment basis at the super crowded Carmen Market or in a sidewalk at an elementary school near our house. She had to do a lot of moonlighting to be able to feed all nine mouths at least twice a day.

Growing up in this kind of life had made me question God. Life was not only hard, it was really miserable. Questions kept flying in my head and they were left unanswered for quite sometime, the reason why i didn't get to enjoy my high school life plus the painful fact that I had been cheated by the only person whom I thought have really loved me. I was so filled with remorse and hatred that I found myself so broken and spilled out. I have never been so lost in my life as I had been during those moments. I was groping in the dark trying to get hold of myself. Again, questions were innumerable, my pain so immense and my doubts extremely clouded my soul. My bitterness in life gradually ate me up and I woke up one day severely sick, in fact dying, spiritually. I had to be healed. I succumbed to a challenge that has totally changed my life. It was a decision that turned my life colorful, filled with joy and purpose and above all, love and faith. My direction in life turned so crystal clear. That was when I enrolled in a christian seminary. I have found my trail heading to purposeful direction.

I finished Bachelor in Theology after 4 years from a Biblical Seminary as full academic scholar for the entire college years. During these years, I have involved myself into missions both local and national, worked in a church as an associate minister, youth and music pastor and worked with foreign missionaries, youth and children especially in creative and performing arts. Back then, life was so close to perfect and fulfilling - until I met my second boyfriend, the man with whom I have entrusted my life and love. I got married at the age of 24.

Life has changed. I had to give up my ministry and look for a greener pasture to survive. Then one day, years after, I realized that my passion for the youth, for children, for counseling has not wavered. I decided to take another course and became a teacher. My decision was triggered by an unpleasant circumstance that I have experienced while at work. It brought me down again to my knees and sought for God's divine intervention. I saw His beautiful plans amidst the tragic events in my life. The song "God will make a way" was so real in my life. It says that"God will make a way when there seems to be no way...by the roadway in the wilderness He'll lead me...rivers in the desert will I see..." With 2 kids to raise, a working husband to take care of and a father to attend to, God arranged everything to my advantage. He ordered my steps.

I finished bachelor in Secondary Education with flying colors where I was absorbed as college instructor after my graduation with no hassles of applying for a job at all..I found myself incomparably happy and fulfilled with the profession I chose to tread upon after the vocation I have set aside for quite sometime.

My quest for learning did not stop. I finished M.A. in Education major in English and I kept yearning for more, not for any selfish motives but for some wonderful plans awaiting ahead. I am now into my second masters degree. I am so blessed to have been granted a scholarship under CHED for M.A. in English Language Studies at MSU-IIT which I hope to finish this 1st semester of school year 2011 as I am now on my thesis revision ready for final defense.

We may be trudging on rocky roads and rough hills along life's way; the treks may be so lonely and risky; we may be clouded with trials and obstacles; doors may be closed upon us, but rest assured that God will open the windows for us. God's grace is just sufficient and ever present for those who call on HIM.

To capsulize everything, life is a journey and he who walks with the True Guide in life will be able to find his way no matter how long, no matter how far our journey will be. AND so long as I live; so long as there is God as the center of my life, I shall continue with my journey.

Instruction for CS6
1. post your 1 - paragraph comment about the article. what can you say about the topic? do you want to share something else about life? you have any suggestions or negative comments? write them down below by clicking COMMENT (then write your comment in the comment box)and pls don't forget your name, and click anonymous button before publishing. then lastly, click PUBLISH POST..that's it!
2. in a 1/2 crosswise, write your thesis statement and explain why it is so. submit on Monday, august 22, 2011, class time.
3. see you in the class on Monday, august 22, 2011,

23 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow, what a life.. you had worked so hard to achieve the dream of your life..
I had a similar experience,dad was sick and unable to provide,I also worked hard at a very young age, mom did everything possible for the family,couldn't find any other mom with a strong faith and determination.. God has blessed me with such a great mom, siblings helped a lot too... one did really sacrificed just for me, she stopped going to school so that I could graduate High School, you know it's hard to be a working student when you're graduating.. a lot of requirements to do... she's such a blessing in the family.. how I wish I could repay her someday.. but surely God will do it for me..
anyway, you have an incredible journey... your mom must be so proud of you..

Unknown said...

Your life ma'am is very inspirational. I am also a product of a poor family but that didn't stop me to pursue what I want to be. I look for opportunities to have a Bachelor's Degree because I'm pretty sure that my parents can't send me to school and I can't have my diploma in a silver platter so I grab the opportunity to become a Working Scholar in this institution. For me ma'am, I don't look this opportunity as a blessing instead I put up my mind that this is a privilege. It's very hard to have a mutual responsibilities. I need to focus in my studies and also to have in touched with my S.A. life. Now ma'am, I have learned already to fight this despicable life. I now that there are lots of trials to come in the near future but rest assured that I can handle those stuffs for I know that God is with me. As for now ma'am, I'll look forward for a better future.


--John Paul A. Emilia

Unknown said...

Your life ma'am is very inspirational. I am also a product of a poor family but that didn't stop me to pursue what I want to be. I look for opportunities to have a Bachelor's Degree because I'm pretty sure that my parents can't send me to school and I can't have my diploma in a silver platter so I grab the opportunity to become a Working Scholar in this institution. For me ma'am, I don't look this opportunity as a blessing instead I put up my mind that this is a privilege. It's very hard to have a mutual responsibilities. I need to focus in my studies and also to have in touched with my S.A. life. Now ma'am, I have learned already to fight this despicable life. I now that there are lots of trials to come in the near future but rest assured that I can handle those stuffs for I know that God is with me. As for now ma'am, I'll look forward for a better future.


--John Paul A. Emilia

Anonymous said...

Your life ma'am is very inspirational. I am also a product of a poor family but that didn't stop me to pursue what I want to be. I look for opportunities to have a Bachelor's Degree because I'm pretty sure that my parents can't send me to school and I can't have my diploma in a silver platter so I grab the opportunity to become a Working Scholar in this institution. For me ma'am, I don't look this opportunity as a blessing instead I put up my mind that this is a privilege. It's very hard to have a mutual responsibilities. I need to focus in my studies and also to have in touched with my S.A. life. Now ma'am, I have learned already to fight this despicable life. I now that there are lots of trials to come in the near future but rest assured that I can handle those stuffs for I know that God is with me. As for now ma'am, I'll look forward for a better future.


--John Paul A. Emilia

Anonymous said...

Your life ma'am is very inspirational. I am also a product of a poor family but that didn't stop me to pursue what I want to be. I look for opportunities to have a Bachelor's Degree because I'm pretty sure that my parents can't send me to school and I can't have my diploma in a silver platter so I grab the opportunity to become a Working Scholar in this institution. For me ma'am, I don't look this opportunity as a blessing instead I put up my mind that this is a privilege. It's very hard to have a mutual responsibilities. I need to focus in my studies and also to have in touched with my S.A. life. Now ma'am, I have learned already to fight this despicable life. I now that there are lots of trials to come in the near future but rest assured that I can handle those stuffs for I know that God is with me. As for now ma'am, I'll look forward for a better future.


--John Paul A. Emilia

Anonymous said...

The topic was very inspirational and good for spiritual faithfulness, because we can learn in that article by reading it how God love us and he even have plans for us in our life. I like the part in the article says that "Doors may be closed upon us, but rest assured that God will open the windows for us." I agreed to this statement.I don't have any memorable experience in life and I don't have any suggestions or negative comments. Brifford P. Soledad

Anonymous said...

Mark Steve Vanguardia
cs-6

What a nice story maam, The experience I gained at age 11 would be useful if I were ever 11 again. But I'm 17 and new at it and keep making age 17 mistakes. thanks for everything ma'am.

Anonymous said...

Mark Steve D. Vanguarda
cs-6

What a ncie experience ma'am, The experience I gained at age 11 would be useful if I were ever 11 again. But I'm 17 and new at it and keep making age 17 mistakes. hehe

Marksteve Vanguardia said...

wow

Marksteve Vanguardia said...

Mark Steve Vanguardia
cs-6

wow!! what a nice experience ma'am, the experience I gained at age 11 would be useful if I were ever 11 again. But I'm 17 and new at it and keep making age 17 mistakes.

Anonymous said...

wow ..you have work so hard to achieve your goals in life .. i enjoy reading your journey in life ma'am ... it was very nice and can touch to our hearts .. your mom must be proud of you now ..

-- Geraldin Serenio

Anonymous said...

what i can say that i salute you mam! you have gone to hard times and good times. even though this happens every time, you'll always striving for your dreams and you have just dreamed to be a doctor because you wanna cure the sickness of your father. I once dreamed to be a doctor when i'm in elementary because i want to cure the sickness of my mother. my mother had a breast cancer. she has passed away in may 2007. even though it just 4 years, i've just missed my mother all the time because i'm the closest of my 4 siblings. that's why today i'm using my mother as my inspiration to study more and strive harder!!
May god bless you more my dear teacher!


Abejo, Jo Aim B.
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Anonymous said...

-- what a wonderful journey ...
I have heard many stories about how life is difficult for some people yet,I came to realized that I'm leaving in a life without any responsibility to work on, except to studying for my own future.. and must really study and work hard for the sake of living.. so i really salute you Ma'am for achieving your goals in life with hardships and I admit i envy you so much,of acquiring your dreams in life and living in a comfortable life.. i know people like you really deserves blessings..


Febie Mae O. Gudito

April Rose Namalata said...

a very nice story of your own ma'am.. we all know that its hard for us to see for our parent suffering from their illness and we cant do something to cure them.. in my part, entering college also is one of my parents cannot provide me because of financial problem thats why after i graduated in hs i pursue myself to look for a job just to have my wants and needs in life.. though i was once a hotelier but i did not finished on it.. thats why i decided to look for a job again until such time, i know God has plans on me because i was given an oppurtunity to passed in the working scholar in this institution and i was very happy for that so icould continue my studies.

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.Attitude, to me, is more important than facts.It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill.It will make or break a company... a church... a home.The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.We cannot change the inevitable.The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you...we are in charge of our Attitudes.

above all ma'am youve reach that far because of your vision you have in your life..never just give up in evry trials coz we all that that trialshas made together with a solution ;)

April Rose Namalata said...

a very nice story of your own ma'am.. we all know that its hard for us to see for our parent suffering from their illness and we cant do something to cure them.. in my part, entering college also is one of my parents cannot provide me because of financial problem thats why after i graduated in hs i pursue myself to look for a job just to have my wants and needs in life.. though i was once a hotelier but i did not finished on it.. thats why i decided to look for a job again until such time, i know God has plans on me because i was given an oppurtunity to passed in the working scholar in this institution and i was very happy for that so icould continue my studies.

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.Attitude, to me, is more important than facts.It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill.It will make or break a company... a church... a home.The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.We cannot change the inevitable.The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you...we are in charge of our Attitudes.

above all ma'am youve reach that far because of your vision you have in your life..never just give up in evry trials coz we all that that trialshas made together with a solution ;)


namalata, april rose

Anonymous said...

A very wonderful and inspiring story.It was so very astonish
Ma'am I was so inspire to study better because I realize other people who are suffering from very difficult obstacle in their life although of this obstacle they continue their journey
and make their dream fulfill.
I realize also that without god we are nothing because God Is always there to guide us .God lift us when we are down.

Anonymous said...

A very wonderful and inspiring story.
It astonish me. Ma'am even though their is so many obstacle that block our way to fulfill our dreams. There's a God That help us , lifted us when we are down.I realize without God we are nothing. In this story I realize how the other people make to catch their dreams.It is so hard for very young age to work
and your mother do anything just to feed her children twice a day but even with those experience their is god who helped us and make a way to survive. I was inspire to study more hard because other people suffering for this journey just to make graduate in college and their so many difficult obstacle that come to our life.



- CS6 , Michael James
Celeste

Anonymous said...

An inspiring story that make a lesson to our life to study more more more hard and to the best that we can.
More, blessing to come in our life and a very happy vacation. Hoping that God will bless us in our test.



Monkey D. James

_hAnAlE_ said...

you have an incredible journey m'aam, because you've done so hard and now you are successful woman. you strive so hard just to finish schooling.you had a similar experience with my dad, if my dad read this blog, he will be proud of you. god bless in your thesis.

--Hanale B. Briones BSCS1

_hAnAlE_ said...

you have an incredible journey m'aam, because you've done so hard and now you are successful woman. you strive so hard just to finish schooling.you had a similar experience with my dad, if my dad read this blog, he will be proud of you. god bless in your thesis.

--Hanale B. Briones BSCS1

Anonymous said...

maam u have a wonderful journey in life.Its inspired me a lot as a student because i know how hard life it is especially your doing that for your family to make them happy and give them a better life someday.just do what you want in life to make you happy and thanks for sharing us.


malye t. polo

guiney molawan said...

Hello ma'am :)
its very inspiring story.
and we know ma'am that lord god will always be with you :)

♥ GOOD JOB ma'am GOD BLESS ♥

Anonymous said...

Everyone of us has our own journey in life, and I am amazed so much with your achievements, Ma'am. I agree with you that God is always there to guide us especially in troubles, pains and trials in life. I am a server of Him, a Parish Youth Apostolate, and I always pray for Him to guide me and my family always. I am also not a very strong person, weak for sometimes, but with Him, I know I can face everything. He's my guiding light when I was lost. He's my comforter through all my trials and sorrow... I want to be like you, Ma'am, a professional with faith and determination in life. And because of your determination, you have a stable life and career now, that not all people can have it. You are fortunate enough that God gave it to you... We know that God is part in our journey. Without Him, maybe our lives are miserable. And I thank Him for the guidance and the gifts that I received everyday. I am hoping that someday I will be like you, Ma'am, SUCCESSFUL in the field I chose.

Anyways, congratulations, Ma'am and I am praying for more success of yours. God bless :)

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